Through the foggy haze

Well, just recieved an email from my girlfriend (ex?) with her saying that she was letting me go. Ok, now, even though her and I were talking of breaking up in 4 months (crack plan I know) but it still hurts. Tears streaming down my face like the missippi river. Even though its to be expected, it still hurts. A year of my life has gone by and granted, it wasnt all joy and happiness, however it still hurts. It cuts me to the core. Yes, I do love this girl, and yes I would have gotten married to her. However, before that would have happened, we would have had to come to some compramizes and what not, who doesnt. But still, it hurts like hell. And what hurts the most, is when she closed the email saying I'll miss you. That hurts the most.

Man, this thing called love really hurts. Maybe this is the best for the both of us, but it hurts none the less. I have said this before, and I will continue to say it, I am staying away from females for a long time. I will remain single for at least a year. After the time, some would say that this is the best thing, but really, maybe it is, but it still, it really hurts. Ending a relationship is painful, whether you are doing it or not. I too, will miss her. She is a wonderful girl, and she is wonderful with my son. But she will never, as she says, will never be able to love him as her own. That may be the case, but time does change people. Maybe this is all for a reason.....I dunno....
Depths of dispair, here I come!!

Lord Please be with me. I need you, I want you. You are my savior and I know that you will never leave me.

Man, I wanna drink. Scotch on the rocks!!