Handy Dandy NOTEBOOK

Good night and Mary Sue, I am one tired dog......I have my son this weekend, James. Unfortunately he sleeps in the same room I am in due to the fact that my parents are a bit of freaks, and well yeah we will leave it at that. So anyways, James got up early this morning, as he always does, and went to the bathroom. My dad offered to take him to breakfast, and let me sleep. Little Bugger didnt wanna take that option, he chose to sit there and wake me every 5 minutes as he was playing. But now he is out on a walk with my dad and I have on Blues Clues...Yeah, Im awake......:)

Other than that, I am pretty happy, and content. A friend of mine's mother has been diagnosed with MS and my friend, she is having a real hard time dealing with it. So if you think about it, please pray for her. Fortunately I have been able to encourage her a bit, but still she needs prayers...

I am at the point right now that things are going good in my life, and normally I would be pushing God out of the way, taking over the wheel. God, being the loving God that He is, would always move out of the way for me, so that I could take the car, at 300mph and end up 50 miles off track in a tree somewhere. This times different though. Watching what happened in the past week, really shows me that God is on my side. God is really watching out for me. I mean, prior to Sept 11th, it took me on average 2 weeks to find a new job. After Sept 11th, the average jumped to about 3 months. Never in my life did it take me 3 DAYS to find a job. Im making comparable to what I wanted to make, only 1k below my designated salary desire, but still, its more than I was making prior to me going to WV, and obviously a lot more than I was making in WV. So, yeah, waking up at 6am every day is not really my cup o' tea, but hey, ya gotta do what ya gotta do. I enjoy my job, because I am learning stuff, as well as being needed......:) They turn to me for decisions in the IT department, which makes me feel important. But, the biggest change in me is this. I would pray whenever I would think about it. I would wake up in the morning and go to work, listening to Focus on the Family, or Charles Stanley, or even John McArthur, on the radio, but wouldnt really pray because I was too tired or would make some slim excuse of why I wouldnt be able to. But lately, I have been giving the day to God. Regardless of what happen, the day was Gods. And trust me, I have had some doozies of days. But I wouldnt let them get me down and just go about doing what needed to be done. Listening to Him for His suggestions and what not. In reality, GOD is good. He has helped me out of so many ruts in my life...

Thank you Father, for giving me the love that a person like me does not deserve. You granted me my life, more than necessary, but You continue to grant me my life. For that I am undeserving yet grateful. You are my Lord, You are my Focus, You are my heart. I am nothing without you. I thank you.
In Jesus precious name
Amen

Whence forth does the time go??

So, I move back down to Northern Va, with a car full of clothing and my trusty TV, which is so old, I think Abraham Lincoln used it. With grand ideas of how my new life is going to be I trudge forth in my job search. I get my interview and being in NOVA for 3 days, I get a job. Happy days indeed. However, my weekend of celebration is for nought. Just prior to me recieving the full time job, I get a weekend contract. I got to sit down for 2 days, 12 hrs a day, calling florists to order flowers for those that desire a joyous Valentines day. Actually the first day was only 10hrs. Plus, my ex wife decided to have me take James, my son, for the weekend, so in turn it was my parents who had him... But thats another story all together. So anyways, I start on Monday. I had recieved a call on Friday saying how excited they are for me to join this small company and that I have work to do on monday. Great, I think to myself.

Monday comes, I arrive and BLAM!!!!!!

Im not saying its bad. Im just saying I got SLAMMED....I have been busy as a bee on a spring morning. But thats a good thing. Unfortunately I know none of the passwords to any of the servers, slowly compiling a list of them all. I am unfamiliar with the infrastructure here and what not. However, I am happy. I am currently employeed and am making decent money and feel needed again. *sniff* Oh, Im needed....:)

Also, me and Marla, my ex, have been emailing each other back and forth. Trying to come to some sort of solution of our "situation" as both of us are still strongly attached to each other and can not really break that tie. So, we have decided to see each other. Granted its not ideal for either of us, but we both want each other in our lives, but if someone else comes into our lives that we see starting a meaningful relationship, we are able to. Being 3.5 hrs away from each other, is difficult to really hold onto a strong relationship and with a car that needs an oil pump, and most likely will die soon, its even more difficult. So thats where I am in my life right now. My ex wife has already jumped on me, looking for more money, yet I am currently putting my son on my insurance. She, on the other hand, cannot put him on her insurance because it costs her too much, so she insures herself. Then, decides to go in with a couple of friends, to purchase a horse.........Can we say Priorities? Anyways, yeah......

Jobless no more!!

Well, after being back in Northern VA for 3 days I can officially say that I am no longer a looser. I HAVE A JOB!!!

Yes, God IS GOOD!!
Yeah, I am stoked :)

The Times, They are a Changin'

Well, I have moved back to my parents house, tail between my legs. They have been very nice and accomidating so far, but I have been here only one day. My ex girlfriend is quite upset and has called me all kinds of names. I feel bad, because I do love her and dont really want to leave her, however me, I need a job. I have been back in NOVA for only 2 days, really, and already I have an interview set up for tomorrow. Lord willing, this will be the job for me. I will be a dancing fool if I get this job.

So, yeah, me and my girl broke up. Its kinda hard to imagine not being with her anymore. I mean we were only together for a year, but the year flew by and I personally had a great time. She, on the other hand, has made it clear to me that she did not have fun. Thats the sad part. She has a hard time dealing with the fact that I screwed up my life and got married. And had a kid. So, I dunno, I know its for the best, but the ending of a relationship is always hard for one to deal with. Who knows, Maybe I am supposed to be like Peter, in the Bible, and be alone. I dunno. Im prepared for it though. I do feel that I need time to be by myself, not involved with another female for at least a year. So I can get my self situated and get my life back on track. I kinda go loopy when it comes to females. So, thats about where I am at now, back at my parents, 31 and living with my parents. Goodness, I am such a looser :) Lord willing, this job will take me elsewhere and i wont have to say to people, yeah, I live with my parents. LOL