The Babbling Continues
You know, I was thinking about this, on my way home from my friends house.
What is my calling in this life? Everyone struggles with that question and some, I dont think, ever find the answer. I know I have struggled with that and I feel that my life is a complete mess.
It dawned on me tonight. It seems as thought God spoke to me. "What makes you happy?" Immediately James came to my mind. His smiling face, his giggling laugh echos through my head.
When I wake, my mind is drawn to what he is doing, what he might be feeling at the moment. It dawned on me. James is my purpose. Maybe it will change, I believe that God uses everything in our lives, to teach us. Right now, and it may be my only purpose in life, but I feel its to watch over James.
Never have I felt such a happiness and peace in my life. Never have I felt so sure....well, I was totally sure that it was Gods will for me and Marla to be together, so that wasnt right. I am happy, when he is around.
I think that a lot of people seek for a purpose in their lives. They look for a larger picture. Maybe, your purpose is to be a big brother. Maybe your purpose is to help your grandmother with her daily chores. Right now, I dont see a larger picture other than James. I think that maybe, God will use James, as He has already, to put me in another position in life.
Some look, for themselves, being used in such a large scale, that they miss the little people, the future, staring at them. Looking at them for their wisdom and direction. Thats what Im here for, to help the little man, James.
What is my calling in this life? Everyone struggles with that question and some, I dont think, ever find the answer. I know I have struggled with that and I feel that my life is a complete mess.
It dawned on me tonight. It seems as thought God spoke to me. "What makes you happy?" Immediately James came to my mind. His smiling face, his giggling laugh echos through my head.
When I wake, my mind is drawn to what he is doing, what he might be feeling at the moment. It dawned on me. James is my purpose. Maybe it will change, I believe that God uses everything in our lives, to teach us. Right now, and it may be my only purpose in life, but I feel its to watch over James.
Never have I felt such a happiness and peace in my life. Never have I felt so sure....well, I was totally sure that it was Gods will for me and Marla to be together, so that wasnt right. I am happy, when he is around.
I think that a lot of people seek for a purpose in their lives. They look for a larger picture. Maybe, your purpose is to be a big brother. Maybe your purpose is to help your grandmother with her daily chores. Right now, I dont see a larger picture other than James. I think that maybe, God will use James, as He has already, to put me in another position in life.
Some look, for themselves, being used in such a large scale, that they miss the little people, the future, staring at them. Looking at them for their wisdom and direction. Thats what Im here for, to help the little man, James.
posted by The Dog at 11:00 PM
1 Comments:
One reason I blog is to teach myself lessons I've not yet had time to process. Another is that people around me need to hear that others are trying when life seems hard.
Keep up the writing dude and don't minimize what's going on here. It's significant.
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