Good Morning DC Metro Area!!!
I was going to start this post as a play on word to a song, but since I am mentally tired, I decided against it. I got woken up this morning, to a phone call from the x. I chose to ignore it because I knew that it was going to be something about how James is sick or something. She immediately called the house. My dad answered.
In walks my dad to inform me that she had called and he told me that she said that James has a spider bite. Somewhere in there the word Brown Recluse was thrown in there. As we all know, if you dont check it out, Brown Recluse is one of the most poisonous and deadly spiders in the US. Them and Black Widow. She said he didnt want to put any weight on his foot and that there were red lines moving away from spot. She said that she didnt see any puncture wounds (after I called her).
Ok, now I am pretty tired right now, but really, think about it.
If your child gets bit by what you think is one of the most poisonous spiders in America would you call someone who lives at least 45 minutes away to come pick up the child and take them to the Drs? Now, by my thinking, I would say no. I will say, in her defence, she is from Sweden and probably does not know, but I believe my dad said she was the one who said "Brown Recluse". If you know the name of a spider, then you probably know about the spider as well.
I am trying to take a better approach at how to deal with her. I know, that if I turned to her and said something like that, she would get angry and defensive and would proceed to throw into my face the fact that 1. I left him behind when I went to WV, 2. she is a struggling single mother, 3. She has no money since she lost her job, yet yesterday she tells me of a possible part time gig babysitting a friends kid getting paid under the table, 4. Her car needs work and that she doesnt feel confident in driving it. Knowing her, there would be more venom thrown in my face like an angry monkey flinging its feces.
Yet, I am trying to deal with her compasionatly. I am trying to empathise with her situation and trying to understand that she does not have family around here. However, its hard. Its extremely hard to look at her with the same eyes that Jesus looks at me. In her eyes, she feels that all the moves she has done, was to benifit James. Example, when she pulled him out of Leesburg Elementary and put him into Aldie Elementary (le and ae respectively shortened). She told me that it would be for his benifit because, and I quote, "I cant afford to drive to LE two times a day". As much as I try, its hard to comprehend why a person has to have the oil changed every other week when she is asked to meet either me or my dad in Leesburg, to ease the hassle of driving to Aldie.
For those that are out there and that read my blog, I thank you and would like to ask a favor. Please pray for me. Part of me feels that I am not following what Jesus would do. I think Jesus would stand up for what was right, and by me just accepting the way things are going now and not trying to make things right, is not what He would do. Another part of me feels that I am following Jesus as I am trying to show her compassion.
My dad has told me that she has told him that the x plans on going to Sweden to visit her parents and so my son can see his grandparents and great grandparents etc. I dont know if this is true or not, but I am concerned with this. Also, I know that if I "make things difficult for her" then she might just go for a "visit" and compeletly forget to come back. I am completely serious when I say this. I know that having both parents around the child is the best for the child of a divorce. I mean that. Forget the fact that I have major issues with her as a person and how I feel that she is raising him. I dont know how she is, but I have a feeling that when he gets home from school he is put in front of the TV or the Sony Play Station 2. Every time I call, around 1-3ish, he is usually playing a game and cant talk or watchign a movie and cant talk. Occasionally the x will take him to her friends farm and he can play there, while she does her thing, but yeah....
So, I ask that, if you can remember, please pray for me.
Father,
I ask that You help me to open my eyes and heart to whats going on in this situation. I need Your help. I know that if I use my wisdom, I am going to take this situation and cause so much chaos and strife that it will end up in a bad way. I dont want that and I know thats not what You would have planned for any of us that are involved. Please help teach me about patience and trust, Father. Teach me how to trust You.
I pray this in Jesus name,
Amen
In walks my dad to inform me that she had called and he told me that she said that James has a spider bite. Somewhere in there the word Brown Recluse was thrown in there. As we all know, if you dont check it out, Brown Recluse is one of the most poisonous and deadly spiders in the US. Them and Black Widow. She said he didnt want to put any weight on his foot and that there were red lines moving away from spot. She said that she didnt see any puncture wounds (after I called her).
Ok, now I am pretty tired right now, but really, think about it.
If your child gets bit by what you think is one of the most poisonous spiders in America would you call someone who lives at least 45 minutes away to come pick up the child and take them to the Drs? Now, by my thinking, I would say no. I will say, in her defence, she is from Sweden and probably does not know, but I believe my dad said she was the one who said "Brown Recluse". If you know the name of a spider, then you probably know about the spider as well.
I am trying to take a better approach at how to deal with her. I know, that if I turned to her and said something like that, she would get angry and defensive and would proceed to throw into my face the fact that 1. I left him behind when I went to WV, 2. she is a struggling single mother, 3. She has no money since she lost her job, yet yesterday she tells me of a possible part time gig babysitting a friends kid getting paid under the table, 4. Her car needs work and that she doesnt feel confident in driving it. Knowing her, there would be more venom thrown in my face like an angry monkey flinging its feces.
Yet, I am trying to deal with her compasionatly. I am trying to empathise with her situation and trying to understand that she does not have family around here. However, its hard. Its extremely hard to look at her with the same eyes that Jesus looks at me. In her eyes, she feels that all the moves she has done, was to benifit James. Example, when she pulled him out of Leesburg Elementary and put him into Aldie Elementary (le and ae respectively shortened). She told me that it would be for his benifit because, and I quote, "I cant afford to drive to LE two times a day". As much as I try, its hard to comprehend why a person has to have the oil changed every other week when she is asked to meet either me or my dad in Leesburg, to ease the hassle of driving to Aldie.
For those that are out there and that read my blog, I thank you and would like to ask a favor. Please pray for me. Part of me feels that I am not following what Jesus would do. I think Jesus would stand up for what was right, and by me just accepting the way things are going now and not trying to make things right, is not what He would do. Another part of me feels that I am following Jesus as I am trying to show her compassion.
My dad has told me that she has told him that the x plans on going to Sweden to visit her parents and so my son can see his grandparents and great grandparents etc. I dont know if this is true or not, but I am concerned with this. Also, I know that if I "make things difficult for her" then she might just go for a "visit" and compeletly forget to come back. I am completely serious when I say this. I know that having both parents around the child is the best for the child of a divorce. I mean that. Forget the fact that I have major issues with her as a person and how I feel that she is raising him. I dont know how she is, but I have a feeling that when he gets home from school he is put in front of the TV or the Sony Play Station 2. Every time I call, around 1-3ish, he is usually playing a game and cant talk or watchign a movie and cant talk. Occasionally the x will take him to her friends farm and he can play there, while she does her thing, but yeah....
So, I ask that, if you can remember, please pray for me.
Father,
I ask that You help me to open my eyes and heart to whats going on in this situation. I need Your help. I know that if I use my wisdom, I am going to take this situation and cause so much chaos and strife that it will end up in a bad way. I dont want that and I know thats not what You would have planned for any of us that are involved. Please help teach me about patience and trust, Father. Teach me how to trust You.
I pray this in Jesus name,
Amen
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