Frustrations abound....
Well, it seems to me as though my time has come to start looking for a new job. I am tired of being a "floater". I have a network to build, but.....Im never there to build it. My company only see's me as money. Money money money, thats all I am to them. They make a good deal of money when I am "floating".
I have about 2 more weeks, on Monday, til I get to "come home" to headquarters. But, on the 22nd, a new Network Administrator will be starting at headquarters, so that doesnt really make me feel safe there anyways. So, I have started to update my resume, but....when I did, I thought I saved it and when I went to find it, it was not there.
I need to, first, pray about this. Im just so frustrated with the company that I am not happy. I have been doing bad on my "floating" duties as well. I have been ariving late to the site. Today, I had a discussion with the lead government leision and he wasnt happy about me arriving late. So, I have to do better.
Waking up in the morning is very difficult for me, these days. However, I feel that in some ways, my lackluster attitude is also due to my ADD and I have not been taking my meds. Fear of becoming addicted to the drugs has caused me to stop taking them, but I have decided to start again. Hopefully I will be able to rectify this situation.
Lately, I have just been having a strong desire to remove myself from the Network Administrator relm and find a new career, but I know if I do that, I will end up losing a lot of money and at 32, I dont think I can afford to lose that money.
That being said, I am in the process of moving out of my parents house and living with my friend Mario, whom I have known for about 15 years. I used to live with him before, and admitedly, we had a history of lots of drug and alcohol abuse. However, both of us are a lot older and our lives are much different so there is no drug abuse nor alcohol abuse. Well, the past 2 weeks we have been drinking a lot.
I think that the desire to drink so much is a result of my frustration with my job situation. I found, on a website, that my current salary does not meet my current title nor my job. Im not driven by money, but I do wish to make more money. I dunno, Im just rambling here.......
Anyways....Prayers would be welcomed, as they are always welcomed.
God Bless and have a great day!
I have about 2 more weeks, on Monday, til I get to "come home" to headquarters. But, on the 22nd, a new Network Administrator will be starting at headquarters, so that doesnt really make me feel safe there anyways. So, I have started to update my resume, but....when I did, I thought I saved it and when I went to find it, it was not there.
I need to, first, pray about this. Im just so frustrated with the company that I am not happy. I have been doing bad on my "floating" duties as well. I have been ariving late to the site. Today, I had a discussion with the lead government leision and he wasnt happy about me arriving late. So, I have to do better.
Waking up in the morning is very difficult for me, these days. However, I feel that in some ways, my lackluster attitude is also due to my ADD and I have not been taking my meds. Fear of becoming addicted to the drugs has caused me to stop taking them, but I have decided to start again. Hopefully I will be able to rectify this situation.
Lately, I have just been having a strong desire to remove myself from the Network Administrator relm and find a new career, but I know if I do that, I will end up losing a lot of money and at 32, I dont think I can afford to lose that money.
That being said, I am in the process of moving out of my parents house and living with my friend Mario, whom I have known for about 15 years. I used to live with him before, and admitedly, we had a history of lots of drug and alcohol abuse. However, both of us are a lot older and our lives are much different so there is no drug abuse nor alcohol abuse. Well, the past 2 weeks we have been drinking a lot.
I think that the desire to drink so much is a result of my frustration with my job situation. I found, on a website, that my current salary does not meet my current title nor my job. Im not driven by money, but I do wish to make more money. I dunno, Im just rambling here.......
Anyways....Prayers would be welcomed, as they are always welcomed.
God Bless and have a great day!
posted by The Dog at 9:59 PM
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